12-14-07

A Beautiful Mind - My side

When the mess was going on, when I said a powerful clandestine force was messing with me and I sensed people were rolling their eyes, I asked the psychiatrist I saw for around 100 visits to write a letter as to the state of my mental condition. This psychiatrist is a genuine medical doctor and I think he is great. The only reason I hesitate to publish this letter is I do not want to cause him trouble. The fact I had the presence of mind to know the importance of a letter like this should be a feather in my cap.

Boy can I sympathize with Jonah in the Bible. I have a great family and they have not criticized me for the many things I have said which may have made their lives difficult. My going to a psychiatrist a 100 times is just another of the amazing events in my life. Certainly a higher power is responsible for it. There is a big possibility I could not do the things I do had I not seen a psychiatrist a 100 times. Truly my life blows my mind. My training, my experiences, the people in my life, my family, they are all important.

Recently I have been reading a great book The Secrete compiled by Rhonda Byrne. Certainly we visualize our lives, but in my case I feel there is a powerful force which is involved as well. Grace, some may call Grace, Karma, is involved but the hand of God is in the mix as well, in my opinion.

In retrospect I have come to the conclusion some of the statements I made about what this force actually did when they messed with me were probably incorrect. Some were correct. Some were probably incorrect. What confused me is that I understand the capabilities of clandestine forces. What I said happened were correct in that clandestine forces have the capability of doing what I said they did. However, in some cases, they may have not done what I said they did. They could have, but logic dictates they may have not.

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